Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Epiphany

Ten years ago my husband and I went on our honeymoon to Spain. He had to learn to drive a stick shift in order to drive the rental. He hated it. At one point he said to me, "I was a good driver and now I'm awful." That's how I'm feeling as a teacher right now. I've been doing this for ten years and I've worked hard at it. I've learned a lot and gotten better every year. I've earned a master's degree and gotten my National Board Certification. This year I feel like the weakest link. I've gone from feeling like I'm good at this to feeling like I stink. Fortunately, I know this will pass. As I get the swing of first grade (hopefully soon) I'll start feeling more comfortable. It will still be a challenge, probably for several years, but it won't feel so disconcerting and frustrating.

4 comments:

Mandy said...

Hi, Jenny! I am a fifth grade teacher from Colorado, and I came across your blog. The name alone peaked my interest!

As a fifth grader teacher, I am in awe of you for making that leap down to first. I did an after school group with second graders that made my head spin last year! I truly commend you for what you have taken on! Although, I say "write your name on it" to my fifth graders still, LOL!!

As a newer teacher, this will be my fifth year, I really respect your honesty in your last post. It inspires me to keep going, even when I feel like I don't have it in me, to know that all teachers feel that way sometimes.

I look forward to visiting your blog again.

Tracey said...

CONGRATULATIONS ON YOU MASTER AND NATIONAL BOARDS!!!

Veggie Mom said...

God Bless those of you who teach the tiny grades! I'm a high school teacher myself, and don't believe I'd ever have the patience for the little ones. After 10 years, you know the drill, and you've mastered the tricks and you're ready to face the challenges--God Speed and Good Luck!

teach5 said...

I taught kindergarten for 4 years, then first for two, then did technology for nine before coming back to kindergarten three years ago. Once you get your sea legs, you'll fly!!! How's that for mixed metaphors?
Seriously, in a month, you will be on their level, of course after a while your adult conversations might suffer, but once you get on their level and can see the world from their eyes, it's great, and it looks like you are already getting there. Good Luck!